Reinvention

Reinvention –verb (used with object) 1. to invent again or anew, especially without knowing that the invention already exists. 2. to remake or make over, as in a different form. 3. to bring back; revive.

When I started this journey I was focused on the second definition; literally focused on remaking myself into a different form. I didn't like being overweight and I set out to change that. It didn't occur to me that the motivation and willpower already existed within myself and I'd always had the power to change my life. It wasn't something new. But it was definitely a revival.

Changing myself physically has led to changing almost every aspect of my life. I thought this journey was just about physical health and wellbeing. I really had no idea what I would find and discover about myself along the way. There are days I stop and wonder, who is this crazy person?? My personal trainer and I were commenting on a co-worker of mine as he worked out. I called him "hard core" and she looked at me and said, "You're hard core. You do the same classes and workout he does." It startled me that she said that. Me? Seriously?? My default position is whiney and lazy. I just push myself to be active anyway. And I whine about it along the way to the people who let me. In boot camp class, Marie asks for 100 tricep dips and then yells, "And no whining, Becca!" I love that she knows me so well. And for the record, I think I did at least 75 of those tricep dips.

I've become this person who enjoys pushing myself to the limit, so I've hard to relearn moderation. Ok, so I did boot camp and personal training with a sinus infection and now I'm exhausted, but instead of running the 5k this weekend, I'm going to rest and go see a doctor. See? Old dogs can learn new tricks. Though I really hate missing that 5k.

I have 9 weeks left before basic training. I'd still like to drop another 10 lbs before I go and I need to shave 5 minutes off my 2 mile run time. I rearranged my weekly workout schedule to be just a touch harder (3 runs, 4 weight days and boot camp class) and I'll pay closer attention to my diet. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!